So it’s been a hot minute since I’ve wrote here. And y’all tons of stuff has happened!!! I’m about to be a mommy of a beautiful little Princess who we are naming LilyMae Renee Meadows:) How Precious is that!! I never imagined July 2010 that in July 2017 I would have a baby shower to celebrate a baby. A baby that my sister created for us….she is such a blessing and doesn’t have a clue how grateful we are for what she is doing. Today sitting in the car a song came on called overcomes, We are overcomers. We overcame the doctors saying no, the test saying no, the Ivf failing another no….but we never gave up and when my sister asked if she could carry a child for us my first thought was what if something bad happens. We had been drug through the fire over and over and I just seen no light at the end. I was hurt, angry and just didn’t think I could take much more! But I prayed and God said Yes…try one more time. We did and he answered she got pregnant almost immediately and we will be welcoming her home in just a few weeks!!
Happy Monday! Today in my devotion it talked about God’s promises for us. I am so thankful for all his many promises but today I want to touch on one that is near to my heart. In the Bible there is a story about a man and a woman named Issac and Rebekah, they were married and when they were married her family spoke blessings over her saying “may you become the mother of many descendants:. But as we know that didn’t happen for her, she suffered with infertility, but her husband knew the promises of God and interceded for his wife, how awesome must that have been! if we read on we know that Gods promise came true and she was blessed with not 1 but 2, TWINS!! Wow, God sure knows how to show up at the right time.
I myself find myself struggling with infertility, I have been told by doctors that I wont be able to conceive my own child. But today I am thankful for God’s promises because they tell me a different story. God does not lie! His promises are true and are just as much real as they are now. I believe that Rebekah felt just like me, like she had no hope and she was giving up, but someone stood in for her and said “NO, I still believe it can happen and that faith in God is what made it come to pass. I know many people who are interceding on my behalf right now and believing with me that one day I will be completely healed from this and I will conceive my own baby, despite what has been said!
Matthew 19:26 says Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are POSSIBLE.” That is a promise he made and I know it’s still the same today!
So no matter what you are facing today, whether it’s a moody child, a broke down car or any kind of struggle, just remember to hold onto the promises!
Thank you God for your Promises!!
Tonight’s devotion was about how your prayers never die!! That is awesome to think that prayers my grandpa prayed are still being answered and possibly through me! Sometimes we feel like we have no idea what to do anymore, we feel like all hope is lost, that’s when it’s the most important time to hit your knees and cry out to God! I have been there and pretty recently. I was having a bad day, someone on FB had announced they were pregnant and it happened on the wrong day, so I lost it and had a pity party, I am allowed at least 2 per year y’all! But at that moment I needed God more than anything, and of course I had a weak moment and was mad at him so I didn’t really hit my knees immediately. But when I did it was awesome and he sent the right person at the right time, which is how I got started on this 40 days of prayers! He always has an answer you just got to get on your knees sometimes to hear it!
I’m going to try write more regularly on here. So I have been doing a 40 day prayer challenge and I’m on day 18 today. It’s all about circle your dreams and getting on your knees and truly talking to God. My biggest dream is to be a mom! In 2011 I went to the doctor because I was having a lot of pain in my lower abdomen, after tests the results came back that I had a tumor on my ovary and it needed to be removed immediately. I was scheduled for surgery the next Tuesday, the tumor was removed successfully but the bad news was that one of my tubes was not attached and the other was completely blocked, I could not have children naturally. The worst day of my life:/ I have decided that I don’t want to do infertility treatments because that’s not where my heart is. I don’t have to have my own child. I would love too don’t get me wrong but I don’t want to gamble with a maybe. So now here I am still no baby but I’m making it, I have bad days and I have good days, life is different for me. I see mommies with their babies and I wish that was me but it’s not, that’s not my life and I’m ok with that! This is the life God gave me and I’m going to praise him through the storm!
My life is far from perfect, although I try to make it that way. I’m almost 29 and I thought by now I would have 2.5 kids, a perfect marriage, and a perfect life…uhh not happening! I am a divorced, remarried to a man whom I truly love! No kids, but not because I don’t want them, and my life is far from perfect. I struggle daily with the fact that I’m infertile! Having children is my dream! But God said Not Right Now! That was hard to accept and still is! But I have learned that my life is what God wants for me right now, and I have to give full control to him and step back! Not do easy to do but I’m willing to try! I’m figuring out my new life which is far from perfect and I’m ok with that, because God is in my corner!
Well a lot has changed since I last blogged. I am now a nanny for my best friend. I love my babies! I have the 2 most cutest nephews ever! My husband and I just recently purchased our new home located in waxhaw and we are loving it. My life is a bit crazy these days, but I am blessed and loving it! God never said the journey would be easy but he said it would be worth it! I’m thankful for what I do have and try not to dwell on what I don’t! Well thats all for now!
Hi y’all, yes I’m a southern bell, born and raised! I am a 28 year old housewife, well technically I’m unemployed, again. I have been married for 3 years to my best friend mike:). We have 2 dogs and a cat, no kids yet, I’ll write about that another time. When I am working I am a receptionist, been working dental recently. I am very in love with Jesus and love going to church.